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when you're embedded deep within a situation, you often lose sight of your surroundings/things that are going on. often you may ask yourself or even others, "what am I doing wrong?" "what did i do wrong?". Foggy. But, I now see what happened, and I forgive you.

22 day challenge

"Me being in control, is actually me being out of control...So I have Christ first, because I know that in him is really my full life. "

a break

I feel revived, beautiful, untethered, and most importantly, wiser. After reserving an alienated spot in my dorm today, perfectly aligning my books on my desk, and getting rid of any distractions, I feel that this semester will be significantly better then last. Note to fellow readers: Organization is key. The moment you lose control of  organization could very well be the moment you lose control of your own momentum...unless you're Einstein... :)

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I am so excited! :):)

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cutest thing ever. If you're willing to pay $39.00 and have a kid click this.

lovely

There's nothing more that I want out of this life then to love and be loved equally. I'm not going to chase after it, but instead I want to make sure I'm giving every part of myself to God. Essentially, that's all he wants from us...to be loved as much as he loves us...and we're completely capable of it, but we choose to sulk in our own selfish desire first. So backwards...

Psalm 37:4 

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Next semester is going to be about God, and improving myself drastically...with no sidelines.  I'm claiming this now. Summer, I'm going to leave to somewhere beautiful and start fresh with new perspectives. Love wake up calls. 

beauty

What if she hurt me? What if she left me? What if she died? It would have been the end of me. So I cut it short—before she ever could. You know what? It was the biggest mistake I ever made. You’re making that same mistake right now and I’ll be damned if I sit back and watch. You’ve got to risk love, ... risk it. I didn’t. Look at me: empty, lonely, ghost of a man. It doesn’t mean that you’re never gonna get hurt. But I can guarantee you this: any pain you feel will never, ever, compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love. As someone who’s felt a lot of both: trust me. Pain beats regret every day of the week and twice on Sunday. Don’t run away. Don’t do it!

us

phenomenal burger

looks soooogood...
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>check out the recipe below!


http://www.pink-parsley.com/2011/05/steakhouse-mushroom-burgers-with.html

strongest battle

I've been contradicting my beliefs day in and day out since break, and It's driving me crazy. I was so stern when I was at school, and now all of a sudden since I've been in Johnstown I've been desiring everything I used to. The biggest thing probably, has to be sexuality. From the undergarments I choose, to the nail polish I wear, to the things I'm thinking about, everything has made me feel 'sexy'. I'm not disagreeing, that normally isn't a bad thing, and it does make me feel good to an extent, but sexy is not in particular what I should be going for. Modesty is what I should be achieving...and it's not going too well.

oddity

my ex-boyfriend and I have a real odd friendship, real odd.

so cuteeee

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Romans

as I was watching a pc4m video the other day I took note of one of the poet's saying something about Christians reading from the Psalms because we like to be comfortable and not convicted, and yet we barely touch Romans. Consequentially I had moved from Proverbs, 1st and 2nd Timothy and then at the point of watching that vid., my bible routine was in Psalms. So tonight, conviction was in my heart to touch Romans.

I read from the King James Version, they say it's the closet to the first collection of books so a lot of traditional churches use it...but I think I just use it because it makes me feel like i'm increasing intellectually. It's not so easy to break down concepts (unless you've read Shakespeare), so you don't get as much insight as you would if you bought a KJV and an NIV or NLT...I myself haven't read Shakespeare, but this bible was free, and i'm a jobless college student. So if you have the luxury, utilize it. If not, well...any bible will do...

Enough of getting sidetracked...

Normally KJV takes a few minutes for me to understand meanings of passages, but tonight it seemed like God definitely wanted me to apply Romans to my current circumstances. And since my writing finger was tiring of excessive writing in my journal tonight i'll type the take home msgs I received. :)

Romans 1:

1: You have been called to be separated from all wordly things, and humbled by the gospel of God.

4. You made a promise to God, quit breaking it. You no longer can walk the walk of the past tense, but you will walk in Jesus's footsteps. No gossip, gluttony, lying, fornication, swearing, nada. 

7. By doing your best to fulfill his will, he will present you grace and peace.

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11. He has gifted you with a significant spiritual gift, in which you must establish. 

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17. Live with faith in God, that everything will work out in the end.

18-32 get really deep, and sort of frightening, but yet pleasingly convicting. You should probably take a looksie at those, because I can't hold your conviction...only God and your inner desire to be convicted will allow you. 

new year

Deactivated my facebook, deleted all numbers out of my phone...drastic measures, but starting this year out fresh. It's going to be a good year