strongest battle

I've been contradicting my beliefs day in and day out since break, and It's driving me crazy. I was so stern when I was at school, and now all of a sudden since I've been in Johnstown I've been desiring everything I used to. The biggest thing probably, has to be sexuality. From the undergarments I choose, to the nail polish I wear, to the things I'm thinking about, everything has made me feel 'sexy'. I'm not disagreeing, that normally isn't a bad thing, and it does make me feel good to an extent, but sexy is not in particular what I should be going for. Modesty is what I should be achieving...and it's not going too well.